FFWP/6

I want a garden period. End of story. My house is going to look like a flower garden inside and out. (Dried flowers, pressed, fresh, etc.) But, I want a front yard vegetable garden. It'll bring up good opportunities to share with my neighbors and get to talking with them and be salt and light to them in a mundane thing in life. A dear friend (a new friend!! :D aren't new friends a blessing?) told me about their sweet mother (whom I'd love to meet one day Naomi, if you're reading..) who had this brilliant idea and lived it out. :)

Being a light to the world in the every mundane things of life is going to have to be another post for another time. I have to say right here and now though, that this profoundity didn't come from your feisty red-headed friend-entirely that is. I had the kindling, but the dear new friends of mine were the spark and now there is (slowly) a little fire that increases in size each day within me. It wants to consume me. And soon, it will.

~Lissie

FFW/P #5

I have to have ONE room in my house that is dedicated completely and wholly to books; and the celebration of the luxury/comfort of them.

I know exactly how I want it to look. It goes something like this: Beautiful bookshelves made with beautiful wood (I haven't figured out just what yet. Maybe cherry wood..), DOZENS AND DOZENS, AND DOZENS OF BOOKS will garland those bookshelves. There has to be a window in the room and a window seat with comfy pillows and even a throw (i.e. light decorative but COMFY blanket) for comfort. LOTS of lamps. There's something comforting/reassuring about reading by the light of a lamp. BIG COMFY LEATHER RECLINING SEATS!! (Those are the star of the show besides the books!) And the window is going to have pretty flowy modest curtains. (I don't want them to take away from the leather seats or the books..etc..) And lots of dried flowers and fresh flowers in the room for a sweet scent! This is one wish I hope will come true someday. I could do without all the other stuff in the room as long as I had lots of natural light from a window, leather reclining seats, and that WHOLE room for books!! (Oh and of course lamps...) :D

Does anyone have a dream room for their future home?


Sweetly dreaming,

~Elisabeth Darcy

FFW/P #4

I don't have a "wedding gift list". Unless of course, you count an espresso machine as a "wedding gift list". Oh and carnations are my new favorite flowers! (I still adore tulips and daisies though!) so I have three favorites now! I want to have (maybe) carnations at my wedding. They are so sweet, so beautiful, so well SWEET.

~Lissie

PS. Anyone have a wedding gift list? Or a few things on it already? Or any flower ideas for their wedding? If I'm a freak the declare it so (erm confirm it) via comment! :D

GUESS WHAT?

THIS IS MY 201ST POST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'll have to host a giveaway sometime soon!! :D It can't be this week though, it'll have to be next week because my mom is leaving the 1st-8th for Cali to visit Papa who had a stroke we found this out Mother's day morning. So yeah. She's going to go see him. And since he's resting a lot, in between his rest times she's going to go visit old pals and dearly loved old friends! Yeah. Pray for me. I'll be with the kids (5) (she'll take Josiah) for a week.

:D

~Lissie

FFW/Parenthood #3

Mental note: I will train all my kids to be on a sleeping schedule. It makes life SO much more easier. And I can't deal with 5 attempts of a kid waking up (i.e. after trying to put him to sleep during that time) and wanting to bawl the 5th time he wakes up.

I respect those who do not want to train their kids (at such a young age!!-IT'S HARD WORK!..but it definitely pays off) because it breaks my heart and their heart to hear their kid crying. But for me, when I grow up..it breaks my back rocking and holding and bending over for so long. And it breaks me out into a sweat from anxious pleading to God "PLEASE let him stay asleep!!". And it makes me want to break down into a cry from him waking up and FIGHTING his sleep and not wanting to be "put in the bed" because he likes to "sleep in someone's arms".. you know? It's just stressful both ways.

Mental note: train my future kids to be on a regular (like you know when their 4/5 months not when they're first born's obviously!) sleeping/eating cycle.

What are your thoughts on this? Disagree or agree?

~Lissie

The ultimate playlist

I'm creating a new project playlist. It's going to be the ultimate playlist. I'm sooooo going to post it on my blog!!

Here's the bands I'm going to have on it:

• Death Cab for Cutie
• G. Love and Special Sauce
• The Fray
• Snow Patrol
• The Decemberists
• The Avett Brothers
• The Whigs
• The Artic Monkeys
• The Fratellis
  
• Franz Ferdinand
• The White Stripes
• Dead Weather
• The Black Keys
• The Flobots
• Cage the Elephant
• Flyleaf
• Paramore
• The New Pornographers
  
• Pretty Girls Make Graves
• The Kills
• The Killers
• The Kooks
• Son Volt
• Broken Bells
• Dan Auerbach
• We were Promised Jetpacks
• The Shins
• The Walkmen
• Fleet Floxes
• Bon Iver
• Animal Collective
• Forest Sun
• The Veils
• The Stills
• Alpha Rev
• Red Wanting Blue
• Ra Ra Riot
• Rogue Wave
• Passion Pit
• Jaguar Love
• Train
• She and Him
• The Smiths
• Cake
• Radiohead
  
• The Ramones
• The Pixies
• Kings Crash

ISN'T IT GOING TO BE LIKE THE ULTIMATE PLAYLIST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!??? Bombizzle, fo sho!

Signing off,

~Lissie Darcy

Ordinary Fridays

I'm starting a new blog series. It's called "ordinary Fridays". It's going to be a traditional blog post. It's going to be a post every Friday, consisting of a picture/s that are OUT of the ordinary. SO say it's a random picture of something colorful or vibrant or differently textured that I saw on my Friday. Or whatever. Anyways. It's basically me trying to be creative with my photography/blogging. Finding the Out of the ordinary or "Extra"ordinary in the..ordinary. OK I MADE THAT WAY TOO CONFUSING.


I'm ending this! ANYWAYS. I'm STARTING IT TOMORROW SINCE IT'S FRIDAY.

THE END!

A very tired,

Lissie Darcy

Oh Rain!

Oh rain, how I love you. Please stay. Rain seems to give one the assurance that peace does exist. It reminds us that peace comes from the LORD God who made all things. I think the rain efficiently reflects God's glory. The sound of the rain is a calming, soul-quieting sound. Psalm 46:10 "Be still, and know that I am God. I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth!" That my friends, is the story the rain is telling. It is the story all of creation is telling. HEY HEY LOOK OVER HERE! *FINGER POINTING TO GOD* and then this verse is quoted. The finger (creation) then starts wigging around and around on the specific part that says "and know that I am God" and THAT is when the finger starts wiggling and practically flinging itself off the hand and to God.

If you REALLY wanna look at it in a symbolic way you could say the rain REMINDS (not "stands for") us of Christ's blood washing away all our sins. Kind of like in Noah's ark--only then the rain wasn't washing away our sins. It was washing away the evil, and hatred, rebellious people that turned away from God. It was a symbol though, of what was to come. God was going to send His only Son to wash us, cleanse the sinner's from their sin. But, in Noah's ark, God saved only His people, those that were faithful to Him. (Noah, and his wife, and his son's and their wives..) Christ called a selected few (just like God has always done--if you read the old testament..)whom He would save; bought by His precious blood.

And with the rain, there is also the promise of God that He would never flood the earth again (in water...). And the beautiful rainbow's that we see after the rain displays a beautiful picture: God put His bow in the sky as a sign of His promise never to flood the earth again. But, notice the bow (if you picture like a bow you'd shoot an arrow from..) is not pointed towards us, it is pointed towards Him. Which again (is ever so slightly) a symbol of how God would not slaughter His people the next time. Instead He would slaughter His only Son. BUT..that is kind of me reading into the rainbow a bit much. Still-the bow IS pointed towards Him-not us.

Some people hate the rain. I never have a definite "I HATE IT" or "I LOVE IT." I'm always switching between the two. It always depends on where I'm at in life. If I'm depressed and not doing good spiritually, the rain usually is the voice of what's going on in my heart: There's a storm. If (like right now) I'm right with God, I'm on the path of righteousness. I'm at peace. Etc. The rain is comforting, lovely, wonderful, beautiful and soul-quieting. "Be still, and know I am God." Right now, that is what the rain is saying for me.

If this was totally random and weird. Sorry. I woke up at 6 this morning, and I went to bed at 12 something because I had a sore throat (WHICH SUCKS. I just got over being sick!) so I'm friggin tired man!!

~Lissie Darcy

CLUTCH GIVEAWAY

Go to: http://www.carissagraham.com/2010/05/wanna-clinch-clutch-giveaway.html

to win a clutch!!

--LISSIE

Music update

I have about fifty billion new bands that I'm exploring right now. A friend mixed a little cd for me and there was 21 songs and so 16..(or maybe it was 18) out of the 21 songs I took the bands and made them into pandora stations!! I do better if I can listen to one station for a certain amount of time and then move on to the next..and so forth until I'm pretty familiar with most of their songs. (Doesn't take me long since I listen to music every day..and there's never a limit!!)

The bands I'm focusing on most right now (which aren't all from my friend's cd.) are: The Black Keys, (and I really love them..I like Jack White so yeah the Black keys are one of my faves. I've always liked the White Stripes..), Dead weather (another Jack White), Pretty Girls Make Graves, Cage the Elephant (If you like flobots you'll like cage the elephant), The Veils, Death Cab for Cutie (I've known about them for ages..but I never took the time to really listen to them and get familiar with their songs. But I am now. I REALLY like them a lot!!!!!!!!!!!! Current favorite song is: Blacking out the Friction since it was specifically written for people living in Idaho in the winter..D: ;)) Passion Pit, Broken Bells, Alpha Rev (I really like their song "New Morning"), Red Wanting Blue, and Son Volt. I found out about Son volt just by noticing how many people I know that actually listen to them..so I though hey why not!? And I must say I actually really like them! Been listening to them quite a bit today. They remind me of Forest Sun. If you like Son Volt, and if you like The Avett brothers you'll like Forest Sun. :D

Anyways. I'm trying out all these new bands and it's almost overwhelming. (In a good way of course) But sometimes not in a good way too. Like it reminds me of how many books I have on my book list right now and how little time I have to actually read them. SAD.

But I'm loving it. I don't think anyone listens to as much music as I do. (Except maybe my Dad...my family in general...hehe we're all freaks. We'll be like: ..SOMETHING IS MISSING!?..WHAT IS SO DISTURBING ABOUT RIGHT NOW-OHHHH THERE'S NO MUSIC ON! OH MY GOSH..) Ok well maybe we don't do that but that's what goes on in my mind haha.

Right now as I am typing this I'm listening to Chopin. I really do love Chopin. Aside from Vivaldi, and Mozart, he's by far my favorite composer ever! I never was a big beethoven fan. His music seemed always repetitive to me: He always had one mood (the way I interpret his arts at least..) which was either some deep form of depression that was abstractedly presented through his music. Or melancholy. Or anger.. or all of the above meshed together. I don't know. Not a fan. I do like some of his pieces though.

I've always liked classical music. Ever since I was a kid. Dad would have the classical radio station on and I always would sit and listen. I always tuned everything out except the cello and violins and violas, because I liked those best. Especially the cello though. I was in heaven on earth whenever I listened to the story the cello was portraying.

I don't tune out so much now. I listen to it as a collective whole, as it should be done. But sometimes if you want to appreciate all the instruments as individuals you do , have to tune out all else, and tune in to the specific other.

When I was a kid I was the freak getting autobiography's on Mozart and Beethoven (i used to love him..now I'm kinda ehh noo.) and read up on them. I was born in the wrong time period.

I should've been born in England, first of all. Or somewhere middle eastern like Egypt or India (I love Egyptian history/culture. I find them fascinating and always have ever since I was like 6 watching "prince of Egypt" over and over again for the 100th time..and then moving on to Ariel and the next day doing the same thing over again..) (WHICH by the way I still love Ariel. She's always been my favorite princess.)

Second I should've been born in the victorian time period. Or..I dunno I could go on with the list. But it's useless. I'm stuck in the 21st century. Dag 'gun!

~Lissie

PS. I KNOW WE LIVE IN A FAMILY THAT HAS 7 KIDS BUT THAT DOESN'T MEAN WE HAVE TO SOUND LIKE IT, DOES IT!? YES, I'M YELLING THIS TIME OVER THE NOISE AND CHAOS OF IMMATURE 12 YO SISTERS, AND 10 YO BROTHERS, AND AS FOR THE TODDLERS IT IS TO BE EXPECTED THAT THEY ARE NOISY. BUT 12 AND 10 YO SHOULD KNOW BETTER: HEY GUYS. LET'S USE LIBRARY VOICES. I'M SO SICK OF THIS ON-GOING IMMATURITY AND OBNOXIOUSNESS. LET'S GROW UP A LITTLE SHALL WE?..yes I'm Pis*** in case ya didn't know!

FFPW: For Future Parenthood/Wifehood #2

I absolutely LOVE converse shoes. THEY THE BOMB. I have like 5 pairs of converse. One of which, (my awesome black high tops) are in need of replacing!!!!!

Knowing people like the Forrey's, who probably EVERYONE in their family owns a pair of converse, makes me think thoughts like: Um yeah this is why we're friends! (..ok..well that's not "WHY" we are. but I love you for the existing converse in your home.

It's dangerous when you're sitting a row behind your pastor's family. Because then you get thoughts like "awww they have the cutest family!!" "OH MY GOSH. THEIR LITTLE BOY (Whom I won't name because I do not have their permission) LOOKS SO STINKIN CUTE! WHO DRESSED HIM! OH..MY..GOODNESS!" And then you start unconsciously making SLOPPY MENTAL NOTES..AHEM. SOUND FIMILIAR?

Mental Note Number 1: I LOVE ARGYLE AS IT IS BUT I'M SORRY MY HUSBAND HAS TO HAVE SOME ARGYLE IN HIS WARDROBE!

Mental Note Number 2: ALL MY KIDS, WILL OWN A PAIR OF CONVERSE!! BECAUSE MOMMY WON'T BE THE LONE WOLF IN HER CONVERSE WEARING..

Mental Note Number 3: LITTLE BOYS IN SWEATERS LOOK DANG CUTE. MY SONS ARE GONNA HAFTA HAVE A WHOLE WARDROBE OF CUTE SWEATERS!!

Mental Note Number 4: (this was made ages ago..it's always existed in my head since I was like 13..) MY LITTLE DAUGHTERS WILL HAVE A WARDROBE CONSISTING OF DOZENS OF DRESSES! FROM BLACK-PINK-YELLOW-POOFY-A TWIRLY-...yeah you get the point!!!! AND MOMMY WILL HAVE DRESSES TOO! And Skirts! (LOVE dresses and skirts..)

Mental Note Number 5: (Which isn't a mental note...) I'm lucky I'm short!! Because I can marry a short guy or a really tall guy..and we'll look so cute together!! He'll have a little wife and well me a big husband.

OK so. Just pretend you didn't read that last one. I have to do SOMETHING with my shortness..there has to be SOME sort of acceptance on my part that I AINT GOIN NOWHERE, AND FAST! I'M 5'2" LET'S BE THANKFUL FOR IT! lol!

Is it scary, that you can now say (what with reading my crazy posts) how my mind works? Poor you. You have to put up with my little "outbursts" of craziness, saneness, total serious/somberness, total goofiness, ETC. How I pity you lovely reader you.

LOVE a very distracted red head,

~Lissie Darcy

Ps. So maybe I should think about doing a mother's day post huh? Not only to honor my Mom but all hard working moms out there..?? EH? Ya think? Yeah I do too. I have to do kitchen clean up first and round up these lil'uns for NAP TIME..:D In the mean time..I'll be contemplating on Mum's and what they *particularly mine* does for us children. :)

Book update And a Warning: The Results are epicly lame

I'm reading........................................


ARE YOU?

Ok I wasn't gonna say that from the start.

I'm reading: The Picture of Dorian Gray by Oscar Wilde. It was a birthday present. It's my first Oscar Wilde. I'm not very far so I can't give any compliments/critisism.

I'm also STILL reading Cry of the Soul. Because I'm lame like that.

I'm also reading Lewis's "The Great Divorce". It's kind of..strange. Um yeah. I'm not very far. But it's a THIN book so technically I AM far. Does that make sense? It should.

I made my summer reading list too! I'M SO EXCITED FOR SUMMER! The first week of June will be spent finishing my history cirriculumn. The first 2 weeks will of June will also be 2 very horrible weeks of ALGEBRA 1. And then I'll have completed (by then) my MATH!

Week 1 of June: Math and History

Week 2 of June: Just math NO history

The glorious Week 3 of June: NO HISTORY OR MATH..OH AND OF COURSE ANATOMY CLASS WILL BE OVER WITH AND WILL HAVE BEEN FOR A WHILE. YESH BABY YESH!

I am going to attempt to do geomatry over the summer.

BUT FIRST, I'm going to have 2 weeks of pure NOTHINGNESS! Just going to devour book after book and devote hours of my free time to BOOKS. All that I can get my hands on. I feel like this school semester and LIFE there's been like NO TIME to read what I wanna read. D:

I have a major essay to write for anatomy class. It's my last essay for this class. Class ends in 2 weeks. So I have to write on why I agree with the Psalmist (i.e. see Ps. 139) that we are fearfully and wonderfully made. YIKES..that's tough! I NEED TO GET CRACKING BUT RIGHT NOW MY BRAIN HAS DECIDED TO MELT INTO MUSH DUE TO MUCH QUIVERING OF NERVOUS RACKMENT OF THE BRAIN FOR IDEAS..(Oh..is rackment not a word? Too bad..)

Anyways yeah. I also got my half sister coming out next wednesday. She'll be visiting for a week. So things are going to be intense.

I SPOKE WITH THE STARBUCKS HIRING MANAGER ON FRIDAY (..oh yesterday..lol) IN PERSON!! AND SHE TOLD ME TO CALL HER MONDAY!! SO I have that to worry about.

And then the fact that I'm behind schedule with math (the schedule that i designed sheesh..)

I have some things to look forward to though!

FOR INSTANCE: Dinner with some favorites of mine (forget not having besties..I have besties..hehe they just don't start with P and end in "EER". It's more like "A" and ends in "dult"...hehe), Coffee with a friend, Hair cut and shopping date with one of my favorite people (one of THE sweetest people I know!!), and on the 25th is orientation night for driver's ed, DRIVER'S ED!! I'M EXCITED ABOUT THAT!!, dinner with some more NBC peeps!!, (again with the a..d...u...l..t..(S) )

SO it's not all bad/things to be anxious/nervous/yeah I won't label this last one for certain reasons....

So I guess this turned out to be more then a book update. More like a life update. Why is it that I want to make a point and instead I spill my guts on EVERYTHING ELSE SURROUNDING that point? Maybe in order to make my point I need to start out with the things surrounding that point and the outcome will be: MY POINT! (That did make sense in my head..if I've left you confuzzled it's ok. I have that impression on most people. DON'T FEEL SAD. YOU'RE NOT ALONE! Go find the "confuzzled about Lissie Darcy" group on facebook.. um only don't look it up now. Wait til I actually create the group and pay people to join, so that I prove that you can believe HALF (at least) of what I say. So that I can prove to you that half of what I say is actually in all seriousness..

Confuzzled at your Confuzzledment,

~Lissie

FFP/W: For Future Parenting/Wifehood...#1

Yes I'm weird. Yes I make mental notes in my very unorganized head, that are labeled: FOR FUTURE PARENTING/WIFEHOOD#..(and then I number them, and re-arrange them in my mind alphabetically..because I'm SO incredibly organized and amazing that it's just not even funny because that's so not the truth of things...)

Want some inspiration? Ok. Fine. You're right. I'm no one to look for inspiration from. But how about just an example of what these mental notes look like? Beware: It's my mental journal made up of only JOTTED DOWN *sloppily* notes-like crappy grocery lists that you are suppose to help you NOT spend so much money but if you go shopping with me you end up getting a few extra things...Or like random lists of favorites: My favorite movie *said in a baby voice* is Pwide and Pwejudice.... These kinds of notes that have NO significant meaning WHATsoever.. OK ok..I'm totally just rambling PURPOSEFULLY so. Showin off..y'know..yo..(what it was catchy!?) YEAH YEAH YEAH..TO THE POINT, AND ALWAYS TO THE POINT!!!

For instance: I don't like it when people give little DIGS. Those are so lame. Instead of just SAYING straight forward what it is that you are frustrated at, people will give these slight little digs that indicate what they're mad at without really opening up the matter and discussing it, and insulting the other person at the same time. I mean really, let's be honest with each other. I'd rather just have someone tell me: Hey I'm frustrated right now and it's because of this this and this. Rather then these slightly insulting, ever sarcastic, going NO WHERE digs.

Another thing I hate is sarcasm. The thing that pisses me off is that I use the dang crap myself..so does it really count? Hehe *Guilty Hypo

But, the form of sarcasm I am referring to is kind of similar to "digs". Except instead of even SLIGHTLY indicating on what your frusteration is, you just go all out and use sarcasm blow after blow until you provoke the opposite opponent to anger-JUST so you can take out your frustrations on SOMEONE else.. *I mean sheesh. If you have to go turn into the hulk go somewhere else..or count to ten, dang..* (That wasn't a dig, nor was it sarcasm. I'm perfectly serious. Also, I was straight forward in my frustration: If yur gonna blow up go somewhere else don't take it out on other people..)

These are things that make me mad when my siblings use these things, or when my parents do. I don't know what "normal" teens do, but I make little mental notes like "And I certainly don't want to dish out all these digs to my children when I'm a parent. And I do NOT want them to do that to their siblings EITHER.." But the fact of the matter is I have my own issues that I should make mental notes of in regards to how I treat people in general. I still can't help but make mental notes though...

In fact, I make mental notes unconsciously about everything. Take education for an example, I already know 2 different styles I would like to homeschool my kids. The first is the Charlotte Mason classical style. The second, well I don't know what you'd call it, would be heavier on logic and foreign languages and..yeah..I haven't got the second QUITE figured out yet.

I based that mental note on education, off of the fact that if my parents had homeschooled me from the start I would've liked a combination of the two forms of education above for myself. I don't think it's wrong to think of the future. As long as at the same time you take just the same amount of time (even more so) to correcting your character and take corrections from other people. Learn the lessons God wants you to, listen and look at what He's trying to teach you right here; for right now! And That sentence was totally preached TO ME, and me ONLY. Because I'm a hypocrite, if not the biggest of all hypo's! If you've ever seen Madagascar and the part where Moto-Moto says to Gloria: GURL, YOU HUGE. Gloria: Who's your friend or is that your butt? Moto-Moto: Gurl, you's as quick as you are hefty! I'll be seeing you 'round gurl you know, because you so "Plumpy"....

Um yeah. I am a huge hypocrite, I do have a butt (which I hate..but Mum admires and she's even got some of her friends to join her (meaning mum's) "My" *referring to me* butt fan club...:P) and I'm not hefty thank goodness!! I am going to start THIS WEEK *BECAUSE I'VE BEEN PUTTING THE CURSED THING OFF* some guilt-induced vigorous kick @ss yoga with Jillian Michaels. (hence the kick @ss...)

Anyways, you get the point. Or maybe you don't. That's ok. As long as I've inspired you to get some workout videos of Jillian's then we're cool.. ;)



Your very feisty young blogging friend,

~Lissie Darcy

* "Hypo" is a word that only exists in Lissie Darcy's vocabulary. Do not feel intimidated for it is Lissie who should feel intimidated by YOUR vocab..*or anyone's for that matter..* (fyi that was a "self pity" dig to myself that can be translated as: OH POOR ME. NO ONE HAS TAUGHT ME LATIN. NO ONE HAS MADE A HEADY, NOSE-BLEED INTELLECTUAL, SCHOLAR OUT OF ME! Poor. Me. Ridiculous I know..and yur tellin me? I LIVE with myself..mmmkay?) IT is merely an abbreviation of the word "hypocrite". Make a mental note *like lissie!!* of it because it will now be used in future posts....

Gangsta Luv

Ok so there's this song called "Gangsta Luv" by Snoop Dog, and I WOULDN'T recommend reading the lyrics...

The fact of the matter is, I THINK I GO A LITTLE CRAZY WHEN I MEET NEW PEOPLE AND REALIZE THAT OUR SOULS ARE SIMILAR..

ISN'T IT JUST GREAT!? PEOPLE ARE GREAT! I LOVE friends. I'm speaking particularly of several adult friends that are on my mind/have been on my mind lately.

MY QUESTION IS THIS: IS IT POSSIBLE TO LOVE SOME PEOPLE SOOOOOOOO MUCH YOU JUST HAVE TO DO A HAPPY DANCE OR EXPRESS IT, REJOICE THAT YOU'RE FRIENDS WITH SUCH AMAZING GOD-FEARING PEOPLE, ETC.

Is..is it insane for me to just like be so joyful to be surrounded by godly Christians who really and truly love Christ?

BECAUSE I FEEL A LITTLE INSANE! I FEEL LIKE THE BIGGEST STALKER OUT THERE...AND I'M STARTING TO GET CREEPED OUT BECAUSE I WANNA BE a normal human being thought of as a friend not a stalker..

(The problem lies with me: I think of myself as a stalker. There's just well I HAVEN'T HAD FRIENDS..REAL FRIENDS THAT LOVE AND CARE FOR MY FAMILY AND ME, THAT LOVE CHRIST SO ZEALOUSLY, THAT ARE SO DANG DOWN TO EARTH IT'S JUST NOT EVEN FUNNY..since like YEARS..since like LIVING IN CALI!!! And so right now (I've been surrounding myself a lot with people. If someone wants to spontaneously get together with me um..yeah I'm kinda the person that will snatch that opportunity if I can because..that's how I roll..) all I can talk about is these specific people and conversations we've had, good and whollsome. I LOVE HOW I CAN SPILL MY GUTS to these people and they listen, and encourage me in ways that I need encouraging. I REALLY DO FEEL LIKE IT IS WELL WITH MY SOUL. Christian fellowship is a very necessary thing for your walk with Christ. AFTER ALL God called us individually and collectively as a whole ONE body in Christ...:D )

ALL I CAN SAY IS I LOOOOOOOOOOOOOVVVVVVVVVE YOOOOOUUUUU..yeah I'll stop. I don't think people like the Barney song as an expressive form of love.

That's ok! I LIKE HUGS..does anyone want a hug?

I'M A LITTLE JOYFUL RIGHT NOW, IN CASE YOU COULDN'T TELL. I'M NOT SHOUTING EITHER JUST..EXCITED TONES HERE. JUST A LITTLE HAPPY! MAYBE BECAUSE I KNOW I HAVE ICE CREAM AND A COOKIE AND A SUGAR CONE AND A MOVIE AND BOOKS WAITING FOR ME RIGHT NOW! MAYBE BECAUSE IT'S BED TIME FOR THE BABIES RIGHT NOW! MAYBE BECAUSE THAT MEANS A PROMISED QUIET PEACEFUL REST OF THE NIGHT FOR ME! MAYBE BECAUSE I'M HAPPY MY PARENTS GET TO HANG OUT WITH SOME AWESOME NBC PEOPLE (NAMPA BIBLE CHURCH PEEPS)...MAYBE BECAUSE I LOVE NBC PEEPS WAY TOO MUCH!! MAYBE BECAUSE I LOVE THE PEOPLE I BABYSAT FOR LAST NIGHT? MAYBE BECAUSE MY FRIEND IS SENDING ME HER THESIS..AND I THINK SHE'S ABSOLUTELY AMAZING! MAYBE BECAUSE I HAVE A MAJOR ESSAY TO WRITE ON WHY I AGREE WITH THE PSALMIST (PS.139) THAT WE ARE FEARFULLY AND WONDERFULLY MADE. MAYBE BECAUSE I HAVE FEELINGS OF NOSTALGIA THAT ANATOMY CLASS IS COMING TO AN END. MAYBE BECAUSE IT'S GOLDILOCK'S PORRIDGE WEATHER RIGHT NOW (I.E. JUSSSSST RIGHT!), MAYBE BECAUSE I'M ENJOYING THE MASSIVE AMOUNT OF MUSIC INTAKE I'VE BEEN GETTING THIS PAST WEEK. MAYBE BECAUSE SUMMER IS ALMOST HERE! MAYBE BECAUSE I'M EXCITED FOR NEXT SCHOOL SEMESTER (ALREADY PLANNING). MAYBE BECAUSE I CANT WAIT TO HAVE ENDLESS SUMMER DAYS OF JUST SPENDING HOURS BY THE BOTTLE IN MY BOOKS! MAYBE BECAUSE I GOT SOME VITAMIN D TODAY (NATURALLY NOT IN PILL FORM). MAYBE BECAUSE I TALKED WITH THE STARBUCKS HIRING MANAGER IN PERSON TODAY. MAYBE BECAUSE MY HALF SISTER IS COMING OUT. MAYBE BECAUSE I HAVE 5 DATES WITH FRIENDS (I MEAN HANG OUT TIME..) COMING UP!! MAYBE BECAUSE I'M GOING TO GET MY HAIR CUT SOON! MAYBE BECAUSE GOD HAS GIVEN ME REST. MAYBE BECAUSE SCHOOL'S ALMOST DONE! MAYBE BECAUSE GOD'S BLESSED ME IMMENSELY IN EVERYTHING. MAYBE BECAUSE I THINK IT SMELLS LIKE FENNEL..OR BLACK LIQUORISH...(EW).AND I THINK THAT'S RATHER STRANGE AND AM CHUCKLING OVER IT. MAYBE BECAUSE I CANT WAIT TO GET MY LEGS TAN THIS SUMMER (WELL I GOT A MAJOR SUN BURN AND SO MY ARMS ARE ALREADY TAN..A START. YOU CAN NEVER GET TOO TAN HEHEHE..NATURALLY THOUGH! NONE OF THIS TANNING SALON CRAP..!) !! MAYBE BECAUSE I CAN'T WAIT TO START SWIMMING!! MAYBE BECAUSE I CAN'T WAIT TO LEARN MOOOOOOREEEE! MAYBE BECAUSE I CAN'T WAIT TIL AFTER HIGH SCHOOL! MAYBE BECAUSE ONE DAY I WANNA WORK AT ANTHROPOLOGIE!! MAYBE BECAUSE I APPLIED AT OLD NAVY!! MAYBE BECAUSE ..a little birdie told me that our pastor's wearing the sweater I got him for his bday?..MAYBE BECAUSE YOU SO DIDN'T READ THAT LAST SENTENCE. MAYBE BECAUSE I'M SO NOT A CREEPER/STALKER! MAYBE BECAUSE I CANT' FRIGGIN WAIT TO DRIVE! MAYBE BECAUSE I LIKE THE WORDS: FRIGGIN, SHINY NICKLE SYNDROME, GOLDILOCK'S PORRIDGE, CONFUZZLED (I.E. CONFUSED/PUZZLED). MAYBE BECAUSE I ADORE THESE MUSIC ARTISTS: THE WHITE STRIPES, THE BLACK KEYS, DEAD WEATHER, BROKEN BELLS, CAGE THE ELEPHANT, PRETTY GIRLS MAKE GRAVES, BON IVER, USHER, ALICIA KEYS, ROGUE WAVE!!!, ETC. Maybe because I CAN'T WAIT TO START MY SUMMER READING LIST THAT (I) CREATED! MAYBE BECAUSE I'M WRITING A STORY!!! AND I'VE ALREADY GOT THE PROLOGUE DOWN!!!, MAYBE BECAUSE I'M EXCITED TO SEE WHAT'S GONNA HAPPEN NEXT!!, MAYBE BECAUSE I LOVED SHERLOCK HOLMES WITH ROBERT DOWNEY JR., MAYBE BECAUSE I DISCOVERED SOMETHING PETTY HEHEHEHEHEHE MWAHAHAHA!!, MAYBE BECAUSE I LOOK FORWARD TO ADDING 2 MORE PEOPLE TO MY POSSE, MAYBE BECAUSE THIS LIST IS NEVER ENDING, MAYBE BECAUSE I'VE LOST SOME FRIENDS BUT I'VE GAINED TWICE AS MUCH FRIENDS AS I EVER HAD, MAYBE BECAUSE I SEE CHRIST IN MY FRIENDS, MAYBE BECAUSE IT IS CHRIST WHOM I LOVE IN THESE PEOPLE WHO I SEE IN THEM THAT MAKES ME REJOICE AND DANCE FOR JOY AND DIE OF JUST ADORING THEM..

I think I'll stop there because I've now found the answer to my question which was truly, "Why is it that I love these people in my life so much..?" Answer: I see Christ in them, and it is Christ whom I love so much.

Wow. That was like a brick to the face. I think I need to go have some quiet time with God.

Love, *thanks for letting me do my routinely "passionate" outburst...*

~Lissie