Gangsta Luv

Ok so there's this song called "Gangsta Luv" by Snoop Dog, and I WOULDN'T recommend reading the lyrics...

The fact of the matter is, I THINK I GO A LITTLE CRAZY WHEN I MEET NEW PEOPLE AND REALIZE THAT OUR SOULS ARE SIMILAR..

ISN'T IT JUST GREAT!? PEOPLE ARE GREAT! I LOVE friends. I'm speaking particularly of several adult friends that are on my mind/have been on my mind lately.

MY QUESTION IS THIS: IS IT POSSIBLE TO LOVE SOME PEOPLE SOOOOOOOO MUCH YOU JUST HAVE TO DO A HAPPY DANCE OR EXPRESS IT, REJOICE THAT YOU'RE FRIENDS WITH SUCH AMAZING GOD-FEARING PEOPLE, ETC.

Is..is it insane for me to just like be so joyful to be surrounded by godly Christians who really and truly love Christ?

BECAUSE I FEEL A LITTLE INSANE! I FEEL LIKE THE BIGGEST STALKER OUT THERE...AND I'M STARTING TO GET CREEPED OUT BECAUSE I WANNA BE a normal human being thought of as a friend not a stalker..

(The problem lies with me: I think of myself as a stalker. There's just well I HAVEN'T HAD FRIENDS..REAL FRIENDS THAT LOVE AND CARE FOR MY FAMILY AND ME, THAT LOVE CHRIST SO ZEALOUSLY, THAT ARE SO DANG DOWN TO EARTH IT'S JUST NOT EVEN FUNNY..since like YEARS..since like LIVING IN CALI!!! And so right now (I've been surrounding myself a lot with people. If someone wants to spontaneously get together with me um..yeah I'm kinda the person that will snatch that opportunity if I can because..that's how I roll..) all I can talk about is these specific people and conversations we've had, good and whollsome. I LOVE HOW I CAN SPILL MY GUTS to these people and they listen, and encourage me in ways that I need encouraging. I REALLY DO FEEL LIKE IT IS WELL WITH MY SOUL. Christian fellowship is a very necessary thing for your walk with Christ. AFTER ALL God called us individually and collectively as a whole ONE body in Christ...:D )

ALL I CAN SAY IS I LOOOOOOOOOOOOOVVVVVVVVVE YOOOOOUUUUU..yeah I'll stop. I don't think people like the Barney song as an expressive form of love.

That's ok! I LIKE HUGS..does anyone want a hug?

I'M A LITTLE JOYFUL RIGHT NOW, IN CASE YOU COULDN'T TELL. I'M NOT SHOUTING EITHER JUST..EXCITED TONES HERE. JUST A LITTLE HAPPY! MAYBE BECAUSE I KNOW I HAVE ICE CREAM AND A COOKIE AND A SUGAR CONE AND A MOVIE AND BOOKS WAITING FOR ME RIGHT NOW! MAYBE BECAUSE IT'S BED TIME FOR THE BABIES RIGHT NOW! MAYBE BECAUSE THAT MEANS A PROMISED QUIET PEACEFUL REST OF THE NIGHT FOR ME! MAYBE BECAUSE I'M HAPPY MY PARENTS GET TO HANG OUT WITH SOME AWESOME NBC PEOPLE (NAMPA BIBLE CHURCH PEEPS)...MAYBE BECAUSE I LOVE NBC PEEPS WAY TOO MUCH!! MAYBE BECAUSE I LOVE THE PEOPLE I BABYSAT FOR LAST NIGHT? MAYBE BECAUSE MY FRIEND IS SENDING ME HER THESIS..AND I THINK SHE'S ABSOLUTELY AMAZING! MAYBE BECAUSE I HAVE A MAJOR ESSAY TO WRITE ON WHY I AGREE WITH THE PSALMIST (PS.139) THAT WE ARE FEARFULLY AND WONDERFULLY MADE. MAYBE BECAUSE I HAVE FEELINGS OF NOSTALGIA THAT ANATOMY CLASS IS COMING TO AN END. MAYBE BECAUSE IT'S GOLDILOCK'S PORRIDGE WEATHER RIGHT NOW (I.E. JUSSSSST RIGHT!), MAYBE BECAUSE I'M ENJOYING THE MASSIVE AMOUNT OF MUSIC INTAKE I'VE BEEN GETTING THIS PAST WEEK. MAYBE BECAUSE SUMMER IS ALMOST HERE! MAYBE BECAUSE I'M EXCITED FOR NEXT SCHOOL SEMESTER (ALREADY PLANNING). MAYBE BECAUSE I CANT WAIT TO HAVE ENDLESS SUMMER DAYS OF JUST SPENDING HOURS BY THE BOTTLE IN MY BOOKS! MAYBE BECAUSE I GOT SOME VITAMIN D TODAY (NATURALLY NOT IN PILL FORM). MAYBE BECAUSE I TALKED WITH THE STARBUCKS HIRING MANAGER IN PERSON TODAY. MAYBE BECAUSE MY HALF SISTER IS COMING OUT. MAYBE BECAUSE I HAVE 5 DATES WITH FRIENDS (I MEAN HANG OUT TIME..) COMING UP!! MAYBE BECAUSE I'M GOING TO GET MY HAIR CUT SOON! MAYBE BECAUSE GOD HAS GIVEN ME REST. MAYBE BECAUSE SCHOOL'S ALMOST DONE! MAYBE BECAUSE GOD'S BLESSED ME IMMENSELY IN EVERYTHING. MAYBE BECAUSE I THINK IT SMELLS LIKE FENNEL..OR BLACK LIQUORISH...(EW).AND I THINK THAT'S RATHER STRANGE AND AM CHUCKLING OVER IT. MAYBE BECAUSE I CANT WAIT TO GET MY LEGS TAN THIS SUMMER (WELL I GOT A MAJOR SUN BURN AND SO MY ARMS ARE ALREADY TAN..A START. YOU CAN NEVER GET TOO TAN HEHEHE..NATURALLY THOUGH! NONE OF THIS TANNING SALON CRAP..!) !! MAYBE BECAUSE I CAN'T WAIT TO START SWIMMING!! MAYBE BECAUSE I CAN'T WAIT TO LEARN MOOOOOOREEEE! MAYBE BECAUSE I CAN'T WAIT TIL AFTER HIGH SCHOOL! MAYBE BECAUSE ONE DAY I WANNA WORK AT ANTHROPOLOGIE!! MAYBE BECAUSE I APPLIED AT OLD NAVY!! MAYBE BECAUSE ..a little birdie told me that our pastor's wearing the sweater I got him for his bday?..MAYBE BECAUSE YOU SO DIDN'T READ THAT LAST SENTENCE. MAYBE BECAUSE I'M SO NOT A CREEPER/STALKER! MAYBE BECAUSE I CANT' FRIGGIN WAIT TO DRIVE! MAYBE BECAUSE I LIKE THE WORDS: FRIGGIN, SHINY NICKLE SYNDROME, GOLDILOCK'S PORRIDGE, CONFUZZLED (I.E. CONFUSED/PUZZLED). MAYBE BECAUSE I ADORE THESE MUSIC ARTISTS: THE WHITE STRIPES, THE BLACK KEYS, DEAD WEATHER, BROKEN BELLS, CAGE THE ELEPHANT, PRETTY GIRLS MAKE GRAVES, BON IVER, USHER, ALICIA KEYS, ROGUE WAVE!!!, ETC. Maybe because I CAN'T WAIT TO START MY SUMMER READING LIST THAT (I) CREATED! MAYBE BECAUSE I'M WRITING A STORY!!! AND I'VE ALREADY GOT THE PROLOGUE DOWN!!!, MAYBE BECAUSE I'M EXCITED TO SEE WHAT'S GONNA HAPPEN NEXT!!, MAYBE BECAUSE I LOVED SHERLOCK HOLMES WITH ROBERT DOWNEY JR., MAYBE BECAUSE I DISCOVERED SOMETHING PETTY HEHEHEHEHEHE MWAHAHAHA!!, MAYBE BECAUSE I LOOK FORWARD TO ADDING 2 MORE PEOPLE TO MY POSSE, MAYBE BECAUSE THIS LIST IS NEVER ENDING, MAYBE BECAUSE I'VE LOST SOME FRIENDS BUT I'VE GAINED TWICE AS MUCH FRIENDS AS I EVER HAD, MAYBE BECAUSE I SEE CHRIST IN MY FRIENDS, MAYBE BECAUSE IT IS CHRIST WHOM I LOVE IN THESE PEOPLE WHO I SEE IN THEM THAT MAKES ME REJOICE AND DANCE FOR JOY AND DIE OF JUST ADORING THEM..

I think I'll stop there because I've now found the answer to my question which was truly, "Why is it that I love these people in my life so much..?" Answer: I see Christ in them, and it is Christ whom I love so much.

Wow. That was like a brick to the face. I think I need to go have some quiet time with God.

Love, *thanks for letting me do my routinely "passionate" outburst...*

~Lissie